I've now been home for 5,5 weeks and working for 4 weeks.
It feels like I've been home for over a year, can't believe how boring it is to do office work.
It's been wonderful to see family and friends, enjoy good food and drink and just being around people you love.
The problem is the Monday-Friday part, when I have to sit in the office doing my job. Of course I still do my job to the best of my ability but I feel stronger and stronger that this is not for me, at least not now.
I want to travel, dive, learn more about marine conservation etc. I want to be outdoors in the wonderful nature, I want to move around, try a different life style.
I have some thoughts, and depending on what the answers will be I might be off again not to far ahead.
I just hope I can find my place in this world, find my happiness and something to do that feels meaningful.
Of course I also want to return to New Heaven Dive School on Koh Tao, at least spend a few weeks/months there with the wonderful people there.
I also want to go back to TRACC Borneo, by the looks of it they have made such amazing progress in the hands of Professor Steve Oakley and his team.
I do realize that finding a paid job diving and doing marine conservation won't be easy for me since I don't have any higher education in this field. But I think I'm willing to take that chance.
Finding a job when coming back to Stockholm will be real hard but I don't think I should let that scare me out of doing what I believe is what I want.
Hmmm...
